| oh my gosh :$
what i've worked for-
everything i wanted from the very start
i saw in them > ____ >
fuck thiss .
need to stop living like herr
and live my own life
=____________=
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& she's the reason
i started in the first place
i fcked over everything, trying to find what she had
in the end , only thing i found was
despair.
& now i wonder ,
how the hell did she live like that for so long ?
how the hell did she put up with all that , and was still so ... happy ?
mistreated , neglected , overpowered
& still so loving
it took her 2 years to obtain everything she has now
do i have to wait 2 years, too ?
- -- -
why am i complaining if it's what i wanted
i make no sense to myself
T_____________T
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| oh gee" chiko just came up with the most amazing idea (:
things too fragile now to put idea in effect,
so i'll be patient.
hmm , this time , it's been 2 weeks i think
o____o"
not sure. doesn't matter, i'll keep waiting
> ____ >
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< 3
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| as more & more secrets are kept,
all i can do is
trust
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| Thanks for being there for me, for supporting me with my actions.
Thanks for showing me that there is still someone who cares.
Thanks for always knowing when i'm sad & how to cheer me up.
Without you, i don't think i could have made it this far..
I know what i'm doing is hurting you
i'm sorry.
I know you tried your best to help me
i'm sorry.
& I know you've asked me countless times but
once again , my answer is still no- i just can't.
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| i guess it's time to just slowly
ac[cept] the truth
&
live with it.
nothing will ever change
nothing ever does.
be happy with what you have
while you still have it
<3
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